My work is invisible … am I?

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Growing up I remember in secondary school I always used to let my work speak for itself. I felt I had to prove my worth through the work I did….which I got on with quietly.

For example, I was good at playing sport and I recall when we used to be picked for teams…I’d be one of the last to be picked, yet as one student pointed out to me “I notice that every team you play on wins.” When I used to play hockey, I was a good left back (the irony of that position you will see), defence, yet the accolade always went to the centre forward, who made a lot of noise but didn’t make use of the wings as well as she could have. Instead, kept the ball to herself rather than using the skill set of the whole team.

During my career in sales, I was good at mentoring and training people, and when potential recruits were called in, the regional manager used to get them to sit with me so I could suss them out & if I thought they could hack the job. I was just a sales person then with no additional title who went round supporting and trying to help people through the passion I had and goodness of my heart. I had proven myself by winning regional and national awards for top sales results. So it stood to reason for me to apply for an official job as a trainer. I didn’t get it. I was pipped at the post by a person who had left the organisation due to going through a disciplinary for poor performance and lack of sales. She was now considered to be able to train people in achieving top sales. By the way, did I mention she was the “best friend” out of work of the manager who interviewed her? My regional manager was shocked as she was rooting for me to get the job as she knew my skill set. She was a talent spotter. As it so happened my manager was absent for a short while, and I was put in charge of the sales team. Not only did I quietly manage them, I motivated them, trained them, helped them meet targets for products they couldn’t sell as well as meeting my own target. My regional manager was really pleased and said I did a better job than the actual manager getting paid for it. When she returned, she took me off the team leader role, mistook my focus for stress, and made another member of the team a team leader. To which there wasn’t a very good response from the team. I didn’t mention did I that this “new team leader” I found out used to go out with the manager for drinks. At a later date when things shuffled I still managed to lead a team successfully as the team manager was absent and I was the most experienced member of the team.

Therefore maybe a career change in teaching, which I’d always wanted to do would change this situation. I would definitely be visible as I was bringing a lot of experience in with training, peoples skills, management, yet wow, I couldn’t have been more wrong.

Five schools in nine years … I have many stories to tell. I left my school once I’d gained my NQT as I was being spoken to by my manager in a condescending manner. I came from an adult world, I didn’t need to be spoken to like a child…and so I landed a job in another school as Deputy in Science. The Chair of Governors had meetings with the HoD and then asked to meet with me. He very quickly spotted my potential and talent, and said in my meetings with him I covered in one session, the equivalent of 4 sessions worth of work and ideas that Heads of Dept cover. He told the Head to raise my TLR within a month of me starting. On his recommendation I was asked to join the Aspiring Leaders sessions at school.

I proved myself, and that I could train and mentor staff, taking a failing dept in one school and improving the T&L to “good.” Staff were comfortable in asking me to come to their lessons off their own back, in my non contact time, to see if I could help and advise. I was on the extended T&L team. The MAT people came to do observations, I was paired up with them and they gave excellent feedback on my work and my ability to feedback, as did many of the staff, including several nominations for “star of the week.” Despite having proved myself, the school employed an external lead practitioner to work in science and completely took over and rail roaded the work I was doing. I was being questioned by staff as to why I wasn’t doing the role anymore. I had no answers. We were told how to teach, what to teach, things were not good enough. Interestingly when this LP was forced to teach due to staff shortage, she had 2 members of supply staff in with her, and still couldn’t manage the students in our tough school. Going against everything she told us to do, she got the students copying off the board, I had feedback and reports from the staff and the students.

The school advertised for a coach for the science dept. Should I be applying for this role? As I was already doing it. No, I was told, there were bigger things coming to me. An external candidate got the role who had been out of teaching for 2 years, worked at a university, and did some research. She was employed because the interviewers liked the names of the researchers she read and thought she was brilliant. On paper she was. She struggled with every class. She did observations and staff would come to me and completely break down about the feedback. She sought help on what to say about some observations to staff as she didn’t have a clue on what she was looking for. So it was second hand feedback, not even hers. Needless to say, she left the school and I too left the school after experiencing bullying, with no support from the hierarchy and no sign of value or progression.

I have many stories from the previous schools I’ve worked at with similar themes.

I have always developed and furthered myself through leadership courses, research and reading.

I have a sense of duty, care and moral purpose in all I do. I don’t need to shout about it. Its about unity. It’s about striving to reach a common goal. It’s in my make up. It’s in my DNA. Growing up I looked after my siblings, brought them up, studied hard, supported my Mum through very tough times, was married off (not anymore!). It was my duty as the eldest child to do so. This involved a lot of sacrifices. But I did it. An inner pulse was driving that what I was doing was dutiful. Today, having a member of my family critically ill due to alcoholism, and having had my Mum being poorly for 8 years, certain family members got involved in taking over her affairs and the current family member’s affairs. In this time I did what I could, where I could including holding down an extremely stressful job in teaching, and being a TLR holder. It’s interesting that now the whole world needs to hear about this other member. It’s become a political game. Just like the previous examples. Things get played out. There is a “stepping on toes” to get to the top position, to get the recognition, to get the accolade … at the expense of what? Human behaviour supports those that shout the loudest, or trample on top of others to be seen and make themselves visible. Human behaviour needs to change. People need to see what is truly there, than the single perspective that is being presented. But this requires a degree of intelligence, care, effort and vision. It’s not always about what is clearly visible. It can be the subtle….it can be the unseen.

So, in answer to my original question

my work may be invisible…but I’m not.

Thank you for reading and sharing my journey.

Reflections, comments or thoughts are welcome @amyjeetley

Further open, honest, reflective pieces on my journey are available www.amyjeetleyreflections.com

I’d like to thank @ottleyoconnor who was my Interim head. A talent spotter with integrity, intelligence, effort and vision…who literally told me to apply for a leadership course “Teaching Leaders” now @Ambition_Inst and all the staff I’ve worked with me who, though they were not necessarily in leadership positions, made me and my work visible. Thank you. 🙏🏼

Goodbye 2018…Hello 2019!

Having been faced with a quite a few challenges for the past few years, which culminated in me not achieving the goals I had in mind, 2018 brought a set of challenges that left me with no tools to deal with and a level of vulnerability I had never ever experienced in my entire life (which is full of many traumatic and adverse issues from the past already that I have healed and worked through).
However, through these set of challenges brought a huge realisation of what I still had left to find within me, I thought I had reached my capacity to love, to cope and be calm… what I learned was there is always something greater within us that needs to come out. This tends to happen when hope and faith is tested.
My courageous, kind and beautiful Mother had suffered a stroke in the motor cortex of her brain 8 years ago. Over time she deteriorated to the point where she could not walk, talk, eat or move. She had recurrent lung infections that used to flare up, and other issues. Whenever she would be rushed into the hospital, we took it in turns to stop overnight as her needs were so specific, she was unable to press the buzzer and call for help. We knew her every expression, her feelings and assisted and supported her, often going in the next day to work (2 of us in the family are teachers, me in secondary and my sister in FE). The drill became familiar …. the doctors would say she’s not going to make it and we would all leave work and rush to the hospital … only to find she’d pull through again and again. The doctors agreed she defied all textbooks.
Until early July this year, I was taken into hospital with viral lung issues, and my Mum was struggling so much with super resistant bacterial lung infection, that Dad decided on recommendation of the doctors that she should be allowed to release up, peacefully than just to keep her going with antibiotics. It was her time and she went peacefully. A very bitter sweet feeling.
There was a level of peace we all felt while we were looking at her body. We were still talking to her (well…I was doing most of the talking as that’s what I do well!). Many, many tears too. When the doctor came to check her ….he shone the light in her eyes. I watched. Hoping against hope her pupils would respond. They didn’t. Hoping against hope that her chest would rise once more and she would cough. She didn’t. She was gone. All I knew was we need to look out for each other and console each other knowing Mum was safely in her light.
Even though Mum was so poorly, she still managed to teach us lessons. She made me dig deeper and deeper. Resilience, perseverance, courage, kindness and compassion. When knowing doctors said she wouldn’t pull through, we took it in turns to be brave, to play and joke with her. Courage, compassion and an open heart, even through the heartache. Yet life went on, work went on, when I returned to work, teaching went on.
I, we, all felt vulnerable. I went to work and without the cushioning of my family, I felt exposed. I could not relate to this level of emotional vulnerability, the heartache, the emotions. I had no tools to cope with this and nothing anyone could say would make me feel better. Yet people shared their stories, a problem shared is a problem halved. Staff were kind and supportive.
I learned to sit with these feelings, emotions that came in waves. I cried when I needed to, I spoke to Mum in spirit when I needed to …I embraced it all as it was a part of me that helped me get through it. I learned what I needed to from this experience.
Then came October half term. Routine blood tests and certain niggling issues resulted in fast tracked appointments as they found CA markers that were elevated. People told me not to worry until there was something concrete to work with. Blood tests every week revealed the markers going up in their hundreds. My life was whizzing by my eyes, as were my dreams, goals and ambitions. “Don’t worry” people kept saying. Excruciating pain and definitely need to go for surgery. Consultant sent me for a 1 hour MRI scan just to make sure she “hadn’t missed anything.”
I broke down at the doctors, I cried with the consultant. I spent a few days in a further vulnerable state, emotional state ….again with no tools to deal with this news.
Then I had to dig deep….again.
I looked at what my Mum had been through (she’d had a brain tumour years back that was removed).
I learned to acknowledge and be with my fears, my anxieties, my vulnerability again. Being with them, sitting with them helped me to move through them. I learned to get up, and stand up and know I will get through this.
I still went to work this half term though was told by doctors I need time off to myself and dealing with the pain.
Only a few people were able to help me acknowledge these feelings, those who did were with me. The ones who couldn’t, kept skipping past the fact that I was worried and jumped straight onto “only worry about it when you are told specifically”….so basically, inadvertently my feelings, fears, emotions were not being acknowledged or even listened to.
I’m a trained subtle energy field healer (www.energyfieldhealing.com) and so started doing much self healing, meditation, sitting still. I pulled all the resources I could to get myself stronger emotionally, physically and mentally. Painkillers around the clock got me through every day, as did the support of team members.
The final week of term, the results came back and CA markers had dropped. Again I cried to the secretary on the phone. This time tears of joy and relief. I didn’t know I was holding myself together so much until it released. Yet I still did the best I could for my students and staff (and got a certificate for world class provision in teaching for that term).
The reason for sharing this is that every difficult situation becomes an opportunity to grow, to become, to be greater, yet at the time nothing feels like that. I became very human, with pain, grief, sadness….until I dug deep.
So, what did I learn?
  • We are far more resilient than we ever think we are.
  • To work through something means acknowledging your emotions, fears, anxieties first …or find someone who can help you acknowledge them.
  • Never, ever dismiss how someone or you are feeling. Once you acknowledge how they are feeling you will help yourself and them to move through it. Otherwise it becomes stuck, they become stuck and it becomes a compounded issue.
  • Perseverance grows patience and understanding. Never, ever give up hope and faith.
  • Work on opening your heart, feeling and giving love, for it is an open heart that will feed you and nourish you in times of pain. Yes….your heart can still love and heal even if you are in pain. Give it time and patience.
  • Once you have worked through the issues, you then have it in your make up to deal with them and support others through them if need be.
I learned we have far greater depth to our character than we ever can imagine. I have learned to be at peace with myself, my situation, the difficulties I was faced with and people around me (well…most of the time as I am only human!)
Hello to 2019 that will see me successfully through surgery and then embrace the learning lessons that I have learned and reignite my dreams, goals and passions. I would like to share my thoughts, feelings, journeys and most importantly the lessons I have learned more through blogs …which I wanted to do last year but hopefully you can see it would have been difficult.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope it made a positive connection with you and helped you connect, or reconnect to your true being.
Reflection: What were your gifts and #learninglessons2018 that have helped you grow that you will bring into 2019.
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Wishing you all a peaceful, joyful and successful 2019.
Hugs and blessings

Personal energy management skill #PedagooHampshire18

Are you managing your own energies or someone else’s?

Last year, 3750 teachers were off sick due to stress, anxiety and mental illness. That’s one in 83! (Guardian, 2017).  Could some of the stress have been managed in a different way so teachers did not need to take time off or reach a point of ill health?

Every day we deal with different people, places, we move in time – projecting forwards, reflecting the past. We also are bombarded with a list of tasks, projects from every angle. Some of these will serve us, some don’t and at times this all comes at a very fast pace with no space in between.

As a result, do you sometimes feel quite overwhelmed? Stressed? Irritable? Chaotic or out of “control” (command)?

Everything is energy. Science tells us that. Every day, there are “invisible” energy transactions that we encounter, that can lead to feeling stressed, chaotic and out of command of our lives.

In this session, you will be intrigued with the world of subtle “invisible” energies and how they influence us on a daily basis. Join Amy Jeetley and…

  • Discover what happens to us when we become over busy
  • Learn what causes us to be stressed, chaotic and over-burdened
  • Recognise how these states can lead to ill health
  • Practise and apply simple techniques to cleanse, clear, manage and restore your energies and personal space
  • Gain insight into a new way of living daily life with more energy, focus, drive and improved wellbeing.

Enjoy a guided mediation session lead by Amy, to restore you to calm and peace!

I am looking forward to spending time with you in this session, and more importantly, a newer, restored and healthier you. See you soon at #PedagooHampshire2018 on 15th September 2018.

Best wishes

Amy Jeetley

@amyjeetley

 

 

 

Reflections on stress and its cost #pledgeforchange

The last academic year was challenging for me on many levels, in fact every level. It was a case of so many things were happening, so many plates were spinning that all I could do was get my head down and “survive” every day. Just as a general overview I had started a new school in September 2017, in the hope that I will progress with my career, rather than having to deal with a political minefield, bullying and intimidation which caused me to leave the five other schools I had worked at. A number of us were new here, so that helped. I side stepped from always being a second in science role to leading Teaching and Learning in the dept. I  love the coaching and mentoring of trainees and NQT’s and I always put my heart and soul into this. However, I had a very challenging time with one trainee who was not quite ready, though I had tried everything I could go ensure he would follow his dreams (he’ll return to teaching later in life now, though I learned a lot about myself – another blog!).

Furthermore, I was teaching out of my specialism, to a top set Yr11 and other sets which meant I had to learn the topics and exam questions before I could plan and teach them. In addition I taught AS and A2 topics that I had not taught before. Again, learning, before planning, then delivering. Teething issues had to be ironed out, as they would in any department where over half of it is new, including new management. Workload was just becoming off the scale as many new initiatives needed to be put in place.

In amongst this, my Mother had been taken ill in hospital. In 7 months she’d had 7 hospital admissions from her nursing home (she had a stroke in 2010 and was unable to move, speak, eat or talk). So a hospital admission meant me & family taking it in turns to stay around the clock, which included staying up at night, planning and marking at the hospital, and coming to teach the next day, sometimes with very little sleep (she was prone to aspiratory pneumonia so we had to keep an eye on her). Recently she’d spent the last 4 months or so in hospital. Where family members needed support, I gave it. Some needed it more than others on a regular basis. With Mum in hospital, it caused major instability within the family dynamics, emotions were rising high, patience and tolerance was running low. Giving up was not an option, keep going was.

In the meantime, the usual issues that form part and parcel of forming a team was throwing all sorts of things up, instabilities, high emotions, high stress levels. Everyone has a battle they are fighting as did everyone around me, including staff in the department, and all they needed was a listening ear to their emotions. ….where possible I did what I could and many supported me too. Students were stressed for various reasons, I supported and encouraged where I could, so I did regular meditation sessions with my A level students and some with Yr11.

I got tired, exhausted at times but kept up with everything the best I could, under the circumstances. I thought I managed it quite well. Yet did I….?

The psychological stress I was experiencing manifested in the following ways:-

  • a chronic sinus infection with ear infection which went on for months.
  • Asthma not regulating very well so always out of breath.
  • Persistent cough throughout most of the year.
  • Unexplained weight loss, persistent tiredness and feeling unwell all the time… I was diagnosed with anaemia (never had it before!)
  • A small insect bite on foot which lead to cellulitis (where A&E though I had been either on immunosuppressants or very stressed as my immune system was very low – chronic stress is what she said).
  • High blood pressure (never had that before either) doctor said that along with other symptoms was all work related stress so gave me a contact to stress counselling, as I wasn’t talking to anyone about work stresses & told me to start going to the gym).
  • Viral chest infection where I was taken into hospital, along with other symptoms, in July, at same time as Mum passed away so I was signed off for 2 weeks sick and bereavement.
  • I visited the GP in the last 9 months more than I had in the last 9 years!

This prompted me to read the book “When The Body Says No, The Cost of Hidden Stress”  by @DrMate. It is backed up by research, very easy to read and understand. He highlights there are so many illnesses that start as an emotion. If emotions are repressed, and anger or frustration cannot be expressed, over time this will start building up in your system. The emotional centres in the brain, the hormonal network, nervous system and immune system are all linked. Affect one, you affect them all. They cannot be isolated. Many of the things that affect them arises in childhood.

So, take a scenario if someone is doing things or saying things that are unprofessional, or you are shouted at, patronised, intimidated,  lied to etc., each time this happens you have a psychological response. Your adrenal glands release adrenalin. Your heart beats faster. Your breathing gets faster. Blood is diverted away as you go into the fight or flight mode. Your emotions also rise high, your nervous system gets heightened.

Then you rationalise whether to say anything or not, or just leave it as there is no point….until the next time. Take any situation that removes you from your authentic self, or represses your emotions, and your voice,  or causes excessive levels of anxiety. Persistently facing this “fight or flight” response and high cortisol levels (stress hormone which inhibits the immune system, amongst other things) every single day without being able to do something about it, or say something so you are heard, or stand up for yourself will result in physical health issues. Even if someone comes across calm, they have learned a skill to do this (maybe through things like meditation),  yet persistently stressful situations still cause the psychological stress response and eventually it affects your immune system, and other systems resulting in chronic stress related conditions, including autoimmune diseases such as rheumatoid arthritis, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis etc. So, if you don’ t say no, as @DrMate points out, your body will say no!

(Let me know on Twitter if you want me to do a brief overview blog of the book one I’ve finished it, in the meantime his You Tube clip, lengthy yet fascinating to watch/listen to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6IL8WVyMMs).

So, how does all this relate to my pledge?

When my Mother passed away, it had a profound effect on me. It put my life in perspective and made me realise life is finite. The time we have on Earth is finite. Also each day that goes by is a day less, so how will I spend that day? Furthermore, my Mother took nothing with her. This is where ego ends. She left a legacy of her heart, compassion, her love and kindness. Yet on a day to day basis, I see people struggle to show kindness or heart, even seeing these attributes as a weakness.

So here are my pledges to try and  minimise carrying “hidden stress” (I seem to have perfected that!)

10% braver emotionally:-

  1. To remind myself that I am equal to anyone else that even though they may have a position of authority and title, it doesn’t make me any less human.
  2. To ensure I do not put up with anyone shouting at me, being aggressive or trying to intimidate me. To tackle it and speak to the person rather than just leaving it. If it doesn’t work, then I have choices, wherever that may be.
  3. Not to hold my breath and run on the treadmill of work until the next holiday! Ensure I stop and smell the roses in term time.
  4. To book breaks away in advance (have started to do this – short yoga break booked already J).
  5. To take time out for myself more often and know that my good enough is definitely good enough so I know when to stop.

All these are to look after my emotional wellbeing. Once I’ve done that I know the mental and physical wellbeing will follow which will include meditation, personal energy management, sleep for at least 7 hours a day, continue with slimming world & healthy eating (most of the time) … and stick to it!

Thank you for taking the time to read this and I’d like you to reflect :

In what area of your life are your emotions being repressed, dismissed or unheard? What one thing will you/could you do to improve your emotional wellbeing?

Best wishes, love and hugs for the coming academic year.

@amyjeetley

Reenergise and reconnect

It’s not a new concept that if you want your outer world to be better, or more organised, your inner world needs attending to, changing and transforming.

As educators, we have so much to do – deadlines to meet, planning, teaching, marking, assessments, loading data, predicting grades, meeting parents, after school interventions, projects, own commitments etc. The list is endless. At what point do we focus on our inner world to start making change? How do we do this? Do we talk to ourselves? Do we talk to others? Often we end up just off loading our issues onto others.

Do I have time for wellbeing?

There are 24 hours in a day. If we spend 8 hours of them sleeping (lucky people who do), it leaves 16 hours available to choose and use. In a working week, it equates to 80 hours. With the “busyness” and the current “workload issues” we need to find a way we can reenergise ourselves and reconnect to our inner world. In the current climate it needs to be simple, quick and effective. So, does this mean another silver bullet?

Absolutely not!

It is the art of practising sitting still, in the silence.

Ancient teachings and traditions in practising the art of stillness and silence will teach you that from the silence answers will come.

If you are looking for clarity…sit still in the silence.

If you are stressed…sit in the silence.

If you are anxious…sit in the silence.

If you need ideas and inspiration…sit still in the silence.

If you need to reenergise and reconnect to yourself …sit in the silence.

When I say “in the silence,” it’s the silence within.

The wellbeing “buzzword”

The concept of wellbeing in schools has become a huge “buzzword.” Things like having tea and toast for staff, a week of no meetings after school, or other goodies and incentives do have their place. They do create a “dopamine” and/or “serotonin” hit in the brain, so yes momentarily they will create a happy feeling, lift moods and show a level of care or consideration for staff. We are so used to having a quick fix with everything, yet we need to combine this with activities that encourage and empower us to own our personal wellbeing. It needs to be approached from different angles. We are not going to get extra time on our timetable, or get a reduction in the school day, or stop having the monitoring of our lessons, book scrutinies and other things we have to deal with. Change will only happen if we get to the heart of the matter.

The heart of the matter

The bottom line is we are experiencing too much busyness. There is no time to process it as more and more work is piled onto us. This causes a build-up of excess energies and charge in our system. If this is left to its own devices, and we don’t recharge, renew or reconnect, it ends up coming out as verbal expletives with loved ones, or staff, or in some other way.

Sound familiar? Experienced it? Done it yourself?

If this continues and nothing is done about it, it will start to block the flow of your energies, and ultimately the congestion will impact your physical health. It will reduce your ability to cope. People then go off with stress and a removal from the situation is required.

Yet, you don’t need to allow yourself to get to this point.

The solution

We therefore need to manage our own flow.

We need to manage our own processing.

We need to release and let go of these excess energies and charge out of our system.

We need to reenergise and reconnect so every day we have new windows of opportunities to make a difference in a more energetic way, a clearer space to work in and better emotional and mental wellbeing.

All you need to do to reenergise and reconnect to yourself is to make the conscious decision to STOP. Sit still for a few minutes ensuring you don’t add anything further to the situation.

  1. Find a quiet space (ground floor).
  2. Sit on a chair with your back straight and feet focused firmly on the floor. Feel the connection to the ground. Consciously discharge any excess energies through your feet into the ground.
  3. Focus on your breath if it helps.
  4. Sit still, in the silence for 5-10 mins. You could download a mindfulness bell app. They make a pleasant bell sound and it will go off at the amount of time you set it.
  5. When you are ready, return your focus to your physical body and the present moment, focusing and feeling your feet on the ground.

Simples.

Your first step to meditation.

Why sit still in the silence

The first objective is to stop the inflow of any further transactions or data coming in. When you first stop and be still, you will find your mind is buzzing with everything. Wait 2-3 minutes and the backlog in your brain will start to clear.

The second objective is to take the pace out of movement out of all the energies moving in your personal space, your energy field (“aura”). The stillness takes away the energy of activity, and action which is, and will have been fuelling the fast moving energy elements and keeping them hyped up. Research has shown meditation releases neurotransmitters (dopamine, serotonin) in a natural way.

Set a time of 8 weeks. Do this exercise regularly – whatever you can manage.

See and feel the difference to the quality of your life and share with me on Twitter @amyjeetley. Then decide if you wish to continue. You may be surprised with the results.

Wishing you all an “empowered to take ownership of your own wellbeing” 2018

Points to reflect on – please tweet answers, tagging me in @amyjeetley

  1. Leaders – not allowing time for processing and expecting staff to finish full teaching days, attend meetings, and keep their energies high, overloading with work, and expecting them to be engaged will add to this excess charge and build up – eventually this will cause staff to breakdown or be off with stress. Knowing this information what can you, or will you do differently?
  2. Everyone – There are 80 hours available in the working week of 5 days (weekend is extra) – how much time will you realistically commit to in order to reenergise and reconnect by sitting still?
  3. Middle leaders – would you consider incorporating a 5 minute sitting still session at the start of your meetings so staff can reenergise and reconnect?

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4769029/

http://healthyeating.sfgate.com/chocolate-dopamine-3660.html

https://tmhome.com/benefits/scientific-research-on-transcendental-meditation-benefits/

 

 

Reflection on preparation

I hope everyone has had a good summer break, a well deserved summer break in fact.

Preparation before starting school in September is a personal choice and there is no right or wrong way of doing it…or doing it at all.

For me, having worked in 4 schools so far (5 if you count my second placement in training year), I’ve built some strategies that have worked for me on meeting the students for the first time and what I do prior to meeting them in September, especially when starting a new school.

I have reflected and tweaked things every time, as different schools have different cultures, ethos, values and students, I thought I’d share some things with you, and more importantly what I will tweak/add in this year as I start my new school.

Please bear in mind, these are my reflections and what have done, and worked for me. Please feel free to use, or not to use 🙂 As I was writing this, I have realised there is a lot I try and do before meeting the students, I find as long as I am well organised and prepared it leaves me some head space to start managing my classes to get them off to a good start.

The evidence of how important this was for me came when I started a new school mid-year, where I had no data, no lists, no timetable…which came through late and the night before I was due to start the school… 7pm I was contacted to say where the students were with their topics and what I was teaching. No doubt I was up most of the night preparing. The timetable went through several changes, room changes, mix ups, poor communication, lack of communication of where I was meant to be as a new member of staff. My stress levels went really high and for the first time ever I found myself becoming anxious on a daily basis with this lack of organisation. However, I did learn some very important lessons and I grew out of the challenge. My preference is to return to being organised and prepared as much as I can…and that, to a certain degree depends, on how organised the school is. It is interesting when I ask for a lot of the information up front, how people are surprised and don’t actually understand why I need that information. Hopefully it will be clear now 🙂

Some teachers are hopefully still on summer holidays so enjoy as much as you can!

Pre-organisation 

As I teach science, I tend to go into school and clear the lab I’m working in and change the backing paper for displays so they’re ready to go. I’ve been into my new school already.  I had some help to do this. I used sprays, multi surface cleaners to get rid of dust and arranged tables the way I want to.

All the cupboards were full, I had no one to ask where to put stuff so I’ve piled it into 2 cupboards to create some space.

The books will go into allocated trays with labels not too far from the door and as students enter, books will be staggered and laid on the side so they put their bags/coats on one side, pick up their books and be seated, ready to learn.

Trays are ready so I  know where assessments will be placed when they are done, there is a cupboard to put work in that may be in progress.

My tea/coffee/chai tea and mug (need to get priorities right) are in a cupboard next to my desk. I know where my folders with resources will go, and folders for observations etc. will be locked away as they may contain sensitive information. (once I’ve ordered the key!). Drawers with stationery, paper, graph paper, glue etc. are ready and just need topping up.

I’ve checked the notice board in science to get an idea of year groups, last year results, it’s given me and idea of weak and strong cohorts, and a topic map has been stuck up for GCSEs so I have an idea of what the topics are for the new GCSE’s as I am moving from OCR to AQA now (though traditionally I have taught AQA).

I had already visited the school and have a clear idea of what I’m doing for KS5, however KS4 was not that clear. As I needed to know, I went in on results day, found the KS4 coordinator and now have clarification.

Standards and expectations 

This was highlighted to me in my GTP year. The department at the time used the same PowerPoint (PPT) created by a colleague (now a friend), and the dept. was consistent in its use. To this day that is still one of the strongest depts. in the school.

I suggested this idea to one of the new departments I worked in previousy, even to share my PPT with staff, to which the answer I was met with was, “You can do that if you like, we don’t do that here.” The idea was teaching time was very important and they could not take up time setting standards and expectations. Needless to say, behaviour was a massive issue. I’m not too sure why you would not make your standards and expectations clear to classes and students you have never taught before? I suppose that’s a personal choice.

In my NQT year I saw a great Teachers TV programme and the person said “If you don’t show the students where the boundaries are, they’ll look for them.”

Schools have different coloured marking/feedback pens. Once I have checked the coloured pen/feedback policy, I will order, and fund myself, the appropriate coloured pens for each student I teach. My rationale for this is in one of my schools there was so much time wasted in handing out these pens I made it clear to students it’s their learning time we are making more efficient, would they rather waste time with pens (as students mixed them up) or have me give one to one attention in that time instead? Once set, the standards very few forgot the coloured pens for feedback, more importantly, it saved a lot of learning time when doing peer/self-assessment and feedback.

So, I have my own standards and expectations PPT I create which I ensure sit in line with school policy. Due to the changing nature of students these days compared to 8-10 years ago I’m going to tweak it to explain WHY I’m asking them to do this and HOW it will benefit them. Don’t ever be afraid to raise the bar. Set expectations really high, and be highly surprised when students don’t meet them (apparently a colleague pointed out that is what I do). The students do come round (most of them do.). I’ve worked in two schools where SLT & departmental leaders have said my expectations are too high that I need to “adjust my expectations for their students.”  Another school said the students were very special and that I need to be aware of them as students will tend to blame teachers for all sorts.

I have therefore raised my bar even higher, because it I feel it needs to be.

Most schools (not all, in my experience), tend to have a long term (LT), medium term (MT) and short term (ST) plan mapped out, though I’ve not yet received it for KS4 in my new school, I have for KS5. Even if a school provides one, prior to me starting I map out my own LT, MT and ST plans, which I know may and will be subject to change. They key thing is it highlights for me is  where the difficult topics will appear, where more time is needed, can I set more homework/flipped learning for some areas and allows me to set a pace in my mind that is required. This year I will be teaching more Chemistry (my specialism is Biology) so it gives me an idea where I will need to prepare more . This helps me map out timings and clarifies things, as in a new school there is so much other stuff to get my head around.

Once this is clear, I will plan lessons for a couple of days, not much more as they will need adjusting depending on the students skills, levels and abilities  in each class.

INSET/Training day 

Ensure all stationery is topped up, glue, scissors, paper, A3 paper.

I’ll have all books ready, in the trays for each class.

Just incase there are any changes to the timetable, I will double check on those and double check what I’m teaching…again.

I have really learned a lot by working in schools not only in challenging contexts, but challenging times for an ever changing leadership team and policies (another reflective blog later). So double, triple check is what I need to do.

It is important to know where the groups ended up last year before I pick them up, though I’ll have a new HoD/AP, I’ll try and get a spreadsheet of results or access to the shared area and find out the PP & the focus groups for school. Furthermore, I need to know the LACS, and SEND children and any plans they have in my classes.

Once I have the list of pupils they will go into my planner at this stage, colour coded.

I’m better with pen and paper (I know some of you will cringe at that) I will draw out a seating plan for the classes, and my initial seating plan is alphabetical. The students love the game I play that by the end of the lesson I will try and learn all their names. It is amusing when they see me struggle and I forget. A class of 30 takes longer than one lesson to learn! I’ll pencil in the students as there may be some dynamics which are a no go so I can change them around on my seating plan.

Enter the students

They’ll be lining up outside in a straight line in silence. This time I’ll request they have their equipment in their hands ready to learn before they enter my classroom. The new school is a 6 lesson a day school with 50 minutes per lesson, so I don’t want learning time wasted.

They will experience the model of how I want them to enter so I’ll have books laid out on the side they put bags/coats to one side, pick up a (blank) book. Sit down and starter is ready on the board.

The initial starter is always questions to get to know them, their aspirations, hobbies, what they want me to know about them, the style of learning they like (at this point they have a selection like group work/independent/quizzes) etc. It is personal preference what questions you ask. It does give a good insight especially when the quieter ones say they want to be doctors, nurses, or teachers (yes…teachers!  very rare now but I’ve had some), others are into games and want to design them, some play football for the under something ages. It gives you talking points and in science when explaining a concept you can relate it to some of their interests. I recall I was told about behaviour in a particular new class in a new school in September. A year 8 class. When I read their aspirations I knew I had to raise the bar because there were some really ambitious students in there and I couldn’t afford for them not learn due to a minority. Hard work but it was rewarding when even the reluctant learners turned around. One of them thanked me at the end of the year as he was then placed into top set, which is what he wanted, yet at the start his behaviour was dire. So when doing this kind of activity, decide on what you want to know, but more importantly how will you use it to positively impact learning, relationships and atmosphere in the classroom.

Now I’ll deliver the standards and expectations PPT. In the past I’ve related it to Usain Bolt and how he trains for the Olympics. Based on the idea that he has 4 years to train and a 10 second or less window to prove he is the best in the world. Students however, have from year 7 five years of schooling and on average a 1 hour slot for an exam or two, to show what they’ve learned for their GCSEs. I have to think about how I’m going to do it this year as I have mainly 9’s 10’s and 11’s. Once I’ve done it if anyone wants a copy just DM me I’ll send it over so you can use/tweak. One thing I always include is how time wasting builds up.

In a 5 lesson a day timetable, 10 minutes wasted per lesson would build up to, if I recall correctly, about a terms worth of learning missed out in science (that’s off the top of my head, I haven’t done the Math on that for this blog), however it’s a lot of information they would not have learned if there was persistent disruption.

In light of the huge content for the new GCSEs I’m going to include something about flipped learning as homework and why. I did flipped learning for homework in my NQT year without knowing it was flipped learning. It was a failing group and I had to get them to do something, initial basic research at home, otherwise we were not progressing to higher order thinking, as every lesson was simply the basics every time. Yes there was moodiness, sulks, especially when I rang home and the homework was not done and they had to do more science in detention ….they thanked me for the results (at that time they’d done their GCSEs in year 10) and one very reluctant lad commented on now he understood why I was relentless with it. So I know it works.

What do the students expect from me?

Finally, they’ll make a table in their books with 2 columns. One labelled ” What Miss Jeetley expects from me” and the other “What I expect from Miss Jeetley.”

They need to put down 5 things for each. It’s fascinating how students can list what the teacher expects, however, when asked “what do you want the teacher to do for you” students get stuck. Some prompts help here when I say “What if I did not do xyz…” like marking, feedback planning lessons….and it gets them thinking. Even more so, these can be referred to at a later date if I have given the support they wanted, and they haven’t behaved the way I expected. Also, I can give clarification on some points and requests as I go around checking their books. Again, a good relationship building tool.

Students, in my opinion, should know where they were last year and where they need to be this year just so they have an idea of where they are heading. Again, that’s an assumption the targets are available, not all schools will have the targets clearly available at this stage. They’ll write this in their books if I have access to them.

I then will look at the books that night to get an idea and either make a comment or suggestion. Like some students will put ” no homework” and I have to adjust that .., usually by saying “that won’t happen” and explain why.

My tweaks this year based on reflections 

So, there was always an issue with the time it took handing out and collecting in glue sticks, scissors etc. Also, in my last two schools, it was a challenge to get students to my pace of settling down within 3 minutes of entering and start the starter. I was up against a culture as there was so much cover that some students would have had cover all day then come to me, sometimes the only permanent teacher in the day for them.

So upon reading something by @Doug_Lemov a while back, a teacher even practised  routines for collecting in and handing out things at the start of term.

Some of my tweaks are:-

*practice in first lesson passing glue sticks across the rows and collecting them in. Time them and do it 2-3 times to see the best they can do. I’ll give them some things to stick in, one of them being some useful websites with GCSE information.

*practice collecting books, put in trays on their way out.

*practise coming in, picking up their books and starting the starter immediately (I’ll change the slide to have a science starter now).

I’m sure I’ll think of more, as this is a work in progress of constant reflection, and it’s a lot to fit into the first session, so it may go over to the second session.

The next 7 weeks and term 

Be relentless in following up what standards and expectations were laid out. This is very tiring, however, the long term rewards far outweigh the initial tiredness. It’s good for relationship building, shows students the teacher is serious about having a good, engaging learning environment and the teacher cares about everyone’s learning.

School behaviour policy needs to be followed, and I use professional judgment if things need to be nipped in the bud by ringing home, having honest and frank conversations with students. Get pastoral teams involved if needed. Usually asking ” how can I help you to focus, what can I do to help” and if you show you care, the students are quite willing to work with you. It’s either they don’t get it, or they’re next to a person that irritates them. Or they’d like to be moved but doesn’t want anyone to know. There may be other things going on too though that are not so simple.

May sound obvious, plan for their learning journey in their lessons. I read this somewhere, and again I didn’t realise that’s how I plan. When something is inherent to you, you don’t know anything different. I like my PowerPoints, with each slide I look at what do my students know now by this stage…what else do I need to get them to know…how can I get them to understand it…then I look at the activities that fit. I don’t ever look at the activity first, it’s not a case of keeping them busy for me. It’s got to match where I want them to be by the end of the lesson so I can build on it. However, if I see or hear of a good activity I will see how it fits into the concepts I am teaching so my lessons flow. If it doesn’t, no matter how good or exciting it is I won’t use it. My teaching is no where near perfect..its always a constant reflective process that changes topic by topic, day by day seeing what works and what doesn’t as every class, every year, every cohort is different. My teaching has to match that.

For me, every day, planning well thought out lessons with a logical flow (I don’t always get this right especially in the early stages while I’m getting to know my class) is really important. If students see the effort I put in, they’ll be more inclined to want to learn. After all, they are giving me an hour (or 50 mins) of their life, I am giving them also not only an hour or 50 minutes of mine, but also the planning time that went into this.

What will I make happen, what do I want to make happen in that time I spend with my class? Learn knowledge? Be inspired? Build confidence? Every student needs to have walked away feeling they have progressed in some way. It may not always be the knowledge, sometimes it’s just feeling secure to have a go at answering a question even if the answer is wrong. Whatever happens in the lesson, the time once spent will never return. It is important for me and them to invest in it well.

However, be relentlessly consistent so they know exactly what you expect. My classes are not perfect by any means either. However, teachers tend to comment on how they’ll work, or majority are engaged .., yet they don’t see what went on when I first had them to get them where they are. It’s always a reflection and work in progress.

I don’t ever worry if I’ve spent two of the first lessons setting standards, expectations and routines. What I get in return will far outweigh what was put in and the students are thankful for it. I’m sure some teachers/leaders I’ve worked with, including @ottleyoconnor would have some comments to make about this.

Bear in mind, on reflection though this is what works for me, and how I like to work. If you start a school mid year, or pick up classes that have had constant supply, though this will still work, you’re up against a culture so some tweaks or other adjustments may be needed…longer time and patience being one of them along with pastoral team work and improved school behaviour policies.

I was in two minds whether to share this or not, however, some staff I’ve worked with in the past have asked me what I do at the start of a new term. So here it is, and I’d like you to reflect, share and collaborate on Twitter:-

  1. What has really worked for you in the past with new groups or starting a new school?
  2. What will you be changing/tweaking this year?
  3. Is there anything new you would introduce this year and why?

Have an amazing new academic year and I hope all your students are inspired to learn.

Regards

Amy Jeetley

@amyjeetley

Teacher of Science; T&L within dept/whole school

Reflect and pledge

#reflect and pledge

Reflection at this time of year is so important as we launch into pledges for the new year. Before we pledge, I feel it is important to see what worked last year, and why. Furthermore, what didn’t work, why and if there are any challenges that need to be faced, lessons to be learned to move forwards, onwards and upwards. External challenges are usually signposts to our inward journey, and for me it is always important to see what’s going on inside me.

So, here are my reflections on 2016, and pledges for this year:-

#connect 2016 #reflect

Being able to connect to people, and with people is really important. We can only know who we are, and what we are, based on our relationships with one another. If we were alone on a desert island we would not really find out what we are about, our values or what we hold dear. Relationships with each other allow us to reflect on what we are willing to compromise, accept, or not accept.

Having established myself as a teacher in a new school that I had only started in Sept 2015, and handed out wellbeing bags, I endeavoured to spend more time with colleagues at lunchtime, and start a wellbeing club. On reflection, this didn’t happen. This was for several reasons, and without going into detail, let’s just say the culture did not resonate with me, and hence I made the decision to leave in December 2016 to pursue the kind of role I really wanted.

However, as #connect is important to me, I found a way. I took every opportunity I could to attend great, informative events like #pedagooHampshire16 organised by @martynreah, made lots of connections and met some great teachers from Twitter. I attended #NorthernRocks where I had the pleasure of meeting and being inspired by @Stephen_Logan and the #WomenEd event in Leeds where I met Sameena, @EquitableEd, an immensely inspiring woman. Furthermore, I gained much insight from attending the #BeyondLevels event in Sheffield and the Research led CPD event by @kevbartle in Canons Park to name a few. Furthermore, it was great to get involved in, and run #teacher5adayslowchat in the summer where lots of good ideas were generated by everyone.

#connect 2017

This year, I still intend to attend conferences and events where I can, having already signed up for the #WomenEd one in Coventry, and will be attending the #pedagooHampshire17 event. I will still #connect with my new colleagues and make an effort at lunchtimes to do this and at other times. Also I would like to start a wellbeing club of some kind. How do I know it will work this time? I know as I had a coaching session with the amazing and inspiring @vivgrant who coached me through some of the challenges and learning I had been through. Furthermore, I have come to realise, there just are people in this world who may not like you, or resonate with you, even if you have done nothing wrong. This is something I have battled with for years, always thinking it was me and that is why it is something I will let go of in 2017. Whereas I am happy to support people, and coach them, show them compassion, and tolerance, I will not be consumed by making another person’s problem my problem anymore, and neither am I prepared to be held back by others.

#exercise 2016 #reflect

My aim last year was to buy a Fitbit and ensure I exercise regularly. The good thing is the Fitbit appeared and my activity happened in bursts! One day ran into the other and at times, 2 weeks had gone by, the Fitbit had not been worn and no exercise had been done! However, the progress was that I was more conscious of doing the exercise, whether it was a DVD, dancing and prancing around the lounge to 80’s or bhangra music….or even simply going for walks. Furthermore, joining in the #teacher5adayrun for MacMillan (or in my case walk), I did 80km, in one month and managed to kickstart my regime. It helped me raise £250 for MacMillan, which I thoroughly enjoyed.

#exercise 2017

I need consistency this year! So, in prep for this consistency I worked out a routine over Christmas that involves a burst of High Intensity Interval Training, yoga, weights and going for walks. I have managed to keep this up apart from 2 days and I have now found exercises that suit me and that I will do, which don’t take up too much time!

#notice 2016 #reflect

I had pledged to #notice what was going on in my inner world, be more aware of the quality of my breath and notice all the positivity in my classroom. In all fairness, in some areas of my life, the #notice improved, some other areas were a little more painful so looking inside became difficult…and hence the quality of my breath did not improve. In fact it got worse and had time off for breathing issues. Though I had many reasons to be positive with things that were going on in my classroom, towards the end of last year, behaviour became very difficult to manage across the school, and in my own classroom, and I feel I let this affect me, and my focus, though people around me thought I was quite calm!

On some occasions, when faced with challenges, I was able to focus on my breath and become calm. Yet again, it was inconsistent and I really need to build more consistency. I did manage to go on more walks and take note of nature more.

#notice 2017

So, 2017 brings me to a key #notice….that is to notice what I am doing every day. Is what I am doing worthy of my time? Is it an efficient use of my time? How much time should I be giving it? Is it going to help me progress towards my goals?

Another key thing will be to #notice my fellow colleagues and make sure I acknowledge and value what they do, and recommend them for recognition as it is a basic human need to be valued and appreciated. On Twitter, I managed to nominate @ottleyoconnor and @MartynReah for a #Madvent award by @TheSumoGuy, well deserved by both.

Practising more mindfulness in all I do, and breath meditation…there is always room for improvement and I am nowhere near where I would like to be. So practise makes things consistent…not necessarily perfect, but I can get close! #Notice the good things in life, practising gratitude either in my journal, or reflecting daily.

#learn 2016 #reflect

I aimed to continue on my learning journey, which as mentioned before I managed to do through a number of the conferences and events I attended. An area I still need to improve on is taking time out to read. On reflection, if it is something I enjoy, I should hold no guilt in spending time reading, instead of doing school work all the time. Everything within reason, and a balance. Most of the reading or listening to audiobooks I do is on growth and development whether it is self or leadership. It will all come with time management.

#learn 2017

As souls, we are designed to grow, develop and learn, and so my learning journey continues. To overcome the issue of taking time out to read, I have agreed to the #fiftybookchallenge started last November! I’m already behind, however, I have many research books for my studies so hopefully I’ll catch up. Furthermore, I am training my mind and myself to accept that taking time out to read is totally acceptable and does not need to be done only in school holidays! I am excited to #learn on the Diverse Leaders course, and my new Head agreed he will support me to become an Olevi OTP Practitioner when the courses become available to the Acadamies again.

#volunteer 2016 #reflect

In 2016, I had volunteered to mentor a Yr11 student, which I did and enjoyed. However, volunteering staff wellbeing didn’t quite pan out as I had hoped, as mentioned previously. It did appear in the form of supporting with behaviour and coaching where required, sharing and collaborating. Volunteering to do the Macmillan Outrun was very enjoyable and fulfilling. Furthermore, contributing to the #teacher5adayjournal was a highlight, and even more to see the whole journal  in print.

#volunteer 2017

So with 2017 upon us, if there are ways of volunteering that come up, I would consider taking them up. Furthermore, mentoring or tutoring students is an area I thoroughly enjoy and would look for, or even create opportunities for in my new school. Furthermore, volunteering to support staff wellbeing and starting up other groups within school is something to look into.

 

We cannot succeed in our journey alone. It requires being surrounded by people you can be open with, honest and trust. Furthermore, being able to show your vulnerability and know a judgement will not be passed, and that whatever is discussed is always in the best interest of you.

I’d like to therefore take this opportunity to thank @ottleyoconnor for the immense patience for coaching me when needed and @vivgrant for making me feel comfortable during our coaching session. Furthermore, you don’t realise something is wrong until it is put right, so thank you to @martynreah for introducing me to #teacher5aday, giving me opportunities and helping me to realise what a worklife balance actually is.

I am grateful to have a connection with a number of teachers on Twitter who are ever inspiring and uplifting @MrMcloughlin_PE, @HLucas, @LFPassmore, @felizz7, @FloraBarton, @KAB21MAC, @rondelle10_b, @LesleyMunro4, @annanolani, @chrisdysonHT…to name a just a few.

 

Take a few minutes to reflect on:

  • How did your pledges go last year?
  • Did you achieve them? Reflect on why and why not.
  • Who do you surround yourself with? Are they people who you can be open and honest with and show your vulnerability? Do you trust the advice they will give you?

Wishing you an inspiring and successful 2017!